Quinta-feira 21 Mai 2015, 1h:04

As of this evening, I've finally achieved my goal of reaching 30,000 lifetime Muse plays, and while I'm slightly embarrassed at how much of a psycho Muse fan that makes me (30,000 really is a large number!!!!), it's actually taken me an extremely long time to reach this goal.

In fact, it's taken me nearly four years to jump from 20,000 to 30,000 plays, which averages out to approximately fifty Muse plays a week. Fifty plays a week over the period of four years.

That's painful to think about.

It's bittersweet, because at the dizzying height of my Muse obsession that started in Spring of 2010, I was able to reach 20,000 plays in only 14 months, or 350 plays a week. I was a "late" Muse fan to begin with, as by the time I began my obsession I already had access to five of their albums. The comparing math is easy to do.

Looking back on it, I'm a very different person now at nearly twenty-five than I was at nineteen. I've since graduated from college (twice), spent less time on the internet and more in the workforce, and I simply haven't had as much time to listen to music.

But 2012 was a turning point for me, I think - it honestly wasn't a great year. Grad school, the dissolution of a long-term relationship with a fellow massive Muse fan left the discography with a particularly dirty taste in my mouth, and I think I fell out of love with Muse over the course of it. Don't get me wrong, I was thrilled with T2L came out, and saw them on tour, of course, but the album is two and a half years old and to this day, some of the songs I haven't even listened to a hundred times. I also lost my Muse partner-in-crime recently.

In summary, I think I almost lost Muse completely. And that's odd to think about, because they were such a massive part of my life for that whirlwind period in college.

Thank fuck for Dead Inside, because I'm not sure I would have ever come back.

So yes. 30,000 plays. It's fucking embarrassing, but at the same time, I'm really fucking proud, because I did it. I'm here five years later, with everything that has occurred since 2010, and I'd still sell everything I own to follow those three around the world.

I still love them, just as much.